I recently read in a Biola (my alma mater) magazine a confession of a missionary. His testimony was that he had made missions an idol. The idea of being a missionary was so all consuming that it affected his relationship with his wife. His spouse was not opposed to going to the mission field, but she saw their role as more of senders rather than goers. The conflict between them intensified until he came to grips with this one question: What is the core issue of life? Christ or being a missionary? It was at that point that he came to terms that missions had become, for him, an idol.
How do I know this? Because it happened to me. When I came off the field I was riddled with guilt. How could I possibly serve Christ to my fullest teaching missionaries in the U.S.? Sharing my frustration with Lloyd Kwast (former missionary to Cameroon and professor of missions at Biola) Lloyd asked me point blank, “Richard, do you really think God loves you more as a missionary in Kenya?” Like the guy who nearly tore up his family in pursuit of missions, I had made missions an idol.
Obviously I believe that being a career missionary is a noble profession. Having been one for 35 years I can testify that it has been a rewarding life; I have no regrets and wish more people would experience the sheer joy of living and working overseas for Christ. However, I have never believed that being a missionary is the highest calling a child of God can have. I maintain that the most important thing for any follower of Christ is to love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, soul and mind. Fulfilling that, the greatest of all commands according to Jesus (Mark 12:28-30), is that thing which all Christians should desire whether they are a truck driver, farmer, secretary, housewife, businessman or missionary.
Being a witness for Christ is not a profession; it’s a natural outflow of faith to a person who lived 2,000 years ago. When the task becomes more important than the person then we have changed the dynamics of our discipleship, from being a missionary to a mercenary; from making a calling an idol.
2 comments:
Very interestingpost Sir. I know many people like that. Sometimes these over enthusiastic mossionaries make you feel guilty. But truly we can serve God in any area of our lives.
In India there is a great need for" professional "missionaries.People working as doctors, engineers, teachers and civil servants etc.
But I hav e seen the other side too. I personally know a couple who are supported by an American missionary org. they are supposed to be missionaries, but they are not directly involved in any mission work, ...just employ mothers. They don 't even go to church, in fact their superior attitude has b4roken up 2 churches.People think they have come to India to escape the hard life of the wst.
Richard,
Thank you for this post. I, like you have (and still do) struggle with the guilt of leaving my calling. Although, God has blessed the work of my hands here, there is a persistent feeling of having missed God's best. I realize that not everyone is "called" to be a missionary, but what a privilege it was to be one for the time we were.
Bill Gibbs
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